Substitute

I wish I could be as organised. I wish I could also study that hard. I wish I wasn’t as impulsive.” Well, guess what. I wish the exact opposite. For once I would like to not overthink every single thing I do and just go for it. It probably sounds easy, right? Well, nope. It’s not.

That’s probably why people are terrified of me and none of my greatest memories strike me as being very last minute. They were carefully planned with every detail meticulously thought through. I wish I could throw my hands up in the air as if I were on a roller coaster and just trust the rails of life. No expectations, no disappointments.

I should probably be careful what I wish for, but I guess I am writing this just to give a bit of perspective. Not everyone is trying to figure their life out. Some people are sitting on their carefully drawn side-line, trying to say “What the heck” and sprinting in the first direction their feet carry them. Trying to dig their way in so deep that they can’t come out. Trying to get lost in the pleasures of the game.

Trying not to go through life as a substitute.

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